In my previous post, I said: "Grandmother is in the hospital again and I can't go visit today because I've got Physics paper to study for. :/Get well soon, Grandma... I'll visit you tomorrow after my exam. :]"
I did visit her, alright - in the evening after my Physics exam. She was able to talk but didn't talk much. She recognised Amy and me when we talked to her. A number of us went for dinner and then, I received a call from Aunt, asking Mom to quickly come up to the ward, while sobbing on the phone. When we arrived at the ward, Grandmother laid there on the bed ever so still. Eyes closed and mouth slightly open. Aunt, Mom and Nek Long were trying to wake Grandmother up. Amy stood close to me and that was when I couldn't take it any longer. I walked out of the ward and sat near the window. I told myself not to cry. I knew crying won't help. I remained silent for a while but soon, it started raining. 4th November was one long night - a night full of tears, cries, sobs and prayers.
I was told to go home and put Amy to sleep because she had Science exam to sit for the next day. Our journey home was very quiet. Amy and I knew better to leave each other alone. I didn't know what to do, I didn't know how to feel. I was very confused. Someone so close and dear to me just passed away and I didn't like the feeling - I don't like this feeling.
The next day was our last time to see Grandmother. Because we're her grandchildren, everyone made way for my cousins, Amy and I to see Grandmother. I felt weak and I knew I was going to break down any moment. Kak Fathin held my hands and we stood there, embraced each other and started crying. Honestly, I didn't want Grandmother to go.
I spent the last few days sleeping over at my late Grandmother's place. All cousins and close relatives were there and we tried to lighten up the atmosphere by praying, cracking lame jokes, eat as much ice cream as we can, playing soccer and things like that. ... But I know, deep down, each one of us is just as crushed and broken just like everyone else in the house. Everyone still feels Grandmother's presence.
It's not that we're not accepting reality. It's the fact that we misses her, we love her so much and we know we'll never see or hear her again - this makes it difficult for us.
...Even if I was good at vocabularies, words can't express how I'm feeling right now.
:'( Nenek, Yana rindu Nenek. Yana sayang Nenek banyak-banyak.
love love love, yamazaki yuri; lily ween.
385.
Tuesday, 3 November 2009
6:13 PM
Grandmother is in the hospital again and I can't go visit today because I've got Physics paper to study for. :/ Get well soon, Grandma... I'll visit you tomorrow after my exam. :]
Today, I woke up at 10:30AM. 9+ hours of sleep. Damn shiok, seriously - even though I don't like sleeping. Haha. Oh, and the sky was like so pretty and the weather was super nice.
Until it started raining. :/
But I guess it's okay since I like rain too. :D Physics, physics, physics since noon just now. Am going to continue with Physics again later. Oh, and here. ♥♥♥
Exams will be over this week. Okay, maybe not because I still have Science MCQ next week. Once exams are over, I'm going to meet Mary, buy someone's birthday gift and maybe do some shopping because it's been so long. :D Oh, and I need new sneakers. Haha!
(^_^)v Bye-bye!
happy together, yamazaki yuri; lily ween.
384.
Monday, 2 November 2009
11:07 PM
Oh gosh, I'm feeling so exhausted right now and it's not even funny. -.-" Was tutoring Amy Maths just now from 7:30PM to 10:30PM like... what's? Good luck for your exam tomorrow, Amy. :] And oh, did I mention that Venice didn't even appeared in today's exam paper. Haha! Thank goodness I didn't waste my time studying that, man. That chapter annoys me so much because it's just too long and complicated. Overall, Social Studies was manageable, I guess.
Anyway, I have to go now. It's Mom. Goodnight, everyone. :]
brick by boring brick, yamazaki yuri; lily ween.
383.
Sunday, 1 November 2009
9:42 PM
Very busy studying today. Yesterday's Halloween party was awesome but the tag game was cut short because it was raining badly. Later at night, I went out shopping and had dinner with Mom and Amy. I'll blog properly tomorrow. Gomenasai! I shall get back to studying. And oh, this was so last year during my birthday, but,
I miss my cousins! :'[ Let's meet after my exams, okay?
And oh, here. I'm really sleepy now but I have to get back to studying.
Oyasuminasai, minna. ♥
always, yamazaki yuri; lily ween.
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Friday, 30 October 2009
5:17 PM
Last night, before going to bed, Amy was singing this.
"Love Me" by Justin Bieber
♫ "Love me, Love me Say that you love me Fool me, Fool me Oh how you do me
Kiss me, Kiss me Say that you miss me Tell me what I wanna hear Tell me you (love me)"♫
This is what I call talent. And I want him as my younger brother. :D
Oh, and did you know? Amy's in love. My sister is growing up, huh? XD
Tomorrow is Halloween. Party, party, party in the evening, yo! :D Ash's house going to be in a mess again. Will be playing the usual Hide & Seek/Tag game too. Oh, and there's going to be lotsa pudding, desserts, candies and awesome Ash's Mama's fooood. ♥, much?
Yamazaki Yuri♥
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